Wednesday, 8 July 2020

"Change, like sunshine, can be a friend or a foe, a blessing or a curse, a dawn or a dusk."

Day 106-110:

I've really not felt myself over the last few days so I decided to skip a few days, I've not felt very inspired and if I'm honest 'getting through the day' has been as far as I have got. I feel like this whole Covid thing has changed me and some of those changes I really don't like. I think part of this unmotivated feeling is because of the news, I do my best to avoid it but for some reason a few nights back I ended up sat in bed reading and the ridiculousness of this country hit me hard. I'm hoping for a relaxing, creative few days to get me out of this funk. 

On a plus note we found another female Lesser Stag beetle, which made us both smile.

Friday, 3 July 2020

"It's important for every child to have a bit of a naughty streak."

Day 105:

Last night we were very irresponsible and stayed up until 3am doodling and paint while emptying a couple of bottles of wine. It's so lovely actually being in a relationship with someone who has some of the same interests especially as we both thrive off of each others creativity, it really makes all the difference. Last night we decided to but paint the same beetle (Necrophila Formosa) as the pumpkin style markings really caught our eye. I find it so interesting that we can both be painting the same thing yet the come out so different because of our personal styles. We probably would have continued painting had it not been for Opeie walking in, telling us we were too loud and shaking his head at us disapprovingly. The look on his face was too much so we went to bed like a couple of naughty kids.

Thursday, 2 July 2020

"Perfection is attained by slow degrees; it requires the hand of time."

Day 104:

For many of us the last 100 or so days has forced us into seriously changing the speed in which we are living. Ive always been fairly chill but I've seen the people around me have to adapt to this new way of getting through the days. I had high hopes for the lockdown period, I was going to learn new skills and pick up things that I had put down a long time ago, and although I definitely have learned some new skills and have tackled some new projects, this time at home hasn't been as productive as I had invisioned because of concentrating on our emotional wellbeing. I lay in bed tonight thinking about how much creative fun we have had, Both myself and Becci have really been empowered by the things we have been doing and Its been awesome watching Opeie get into his drawing too, I've been putting a lot more thought into how his home education is going to be going from this point and I'm really excited to see where it goes.

Wednesday, 1 July 2020

"Create with the heart, build with the mind"

Day 103:

Opeie has been all smiles today because he has built one of his favourite teddies. Jonathan (or pinky butthole as we like to call him) has been a mobile pillow for Opeie taken all over the house for him to lie on. As he is so loved Opeie decided to immortalise him in bricks to show his appreciation. I bloody love LEGO!!!

Tuesday, 30 June 2020

"Passion surprises. One doesn't search it. It can happen to you tomorrow."

Day 101-102:

Yesterday seemed to fly by and I didn't take a single photo so I'm lazily adding these two days together. Last year we visited Attingham park a few times around this time of year in search of the Lesser stag for Opeies photo collection of found beetles. Each visit we came away with some photos of some interesting new beetles but sadly never the Lesser stag. As we walked home yesterday through the woodland near us, we turned over logs looking for beetles and there she was, sitting there waiting for a photo. I love how things like this can really make our day and we can now cross off Lesser stag from our list. Next up... we still haven't found Opeie's favourite, the elusive violet ground beetle.

Sunday, 28 June 2020

"Make an empty space in any corner of your mind, and creativity will instantly fill it."

Day 100:

I can't believe it's been 100 days since I started doing this picture a day lockdown thing. I'd really lost the umph for writing before I'd started this so its really good to have that back now. The last 100 days have been a huge turning point for me with my creativity too and that has definitely been helped along by that amazing girl of mine. Ive not been in a relationship before where we are creative together and all those bottles of wine and late night creative sessions are definitely what I was missing in life. Last night the conversation went from deep to just plain stupid and went on till 4am. What I loved most is that we doodled and painted during that time and the evening/early morning flew by. This relationship is completely different than anything that I've ever experienced before and I really hope that she is getting as much out of it as I am.

Saturday, 27 June 2020

"Creativity requires the courage to let go of certainties."

Day 99:

The plan for today was to go for good stomp around snail beach, we made pizza and wrapped it up for lunch but when we arrived the weather just didn't want to play ball so we drove a little further up to Stiperstones and dropped the backseats so that we could sit in the back of the car and paint. Before we could start painting though Opeie asked whether we could do a drawing activity he had created where we design products for a supermarket based around themes. I love things like this as you end up drawing things that you would never usually think of drawing. 

Friday, 26 June 2020

"We loved with a love that was more than love."

Day 98:

It kind of feels like everything has realigned over the last few days and all is where it needs to be. Ive felt more myself than I have done for weeks and it's been a huge relief as I was starting to feel a little lost. Opeie has been a lot more perky too, which to me just reinforces that we are filling our life with people that are helping us to blossom. 

Thursday, 25 June 2020

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."

Day 97:

I rarely get any time to just be a grown up and its been that way for so many years. Opeie is the greatest company I could ask for and I wouldn't change anything about him being with me full time for that time, but every now and again its nice to not have to worry about anyone and just concentrate on being. Today was one of those rare occasions where he wasn't with me for a few hours so me and Becci went for a long walk deep into the woods by the house. We had nowhere to be, and zero responsibilities for that time so we just walked. We looked for fungi, spotted deer and lay on the ground amongst the trees listening to the birds, it was bliss.  

Its hard to remember to breath sometimes with all the day to day stresses and strains of life. The expectations of being a parent at times can feel like a heavy weight, especially with Opeie being home educated too, it really adds to the pressure. 

But for today, just me and that girl of mine and a day filled with love. 

Wednesday, 24 June 2020

"Intense love does not measure, it just gives."

Day 96:

Today there is excitement in the air, it's been over 2 weeks since I last saw Becci and it's not been easy being away from each other fo that time. She'll be over this afternoon and I can't wait. This lockdown period has played havoc with the both of us emotionally but I know that as soon as we see each other everything will be perfect. As the boy and I were up nice and early we headed out for a walk up the lane by us. The sheep never fail to put a huge smile on my face and as we walked, Opeie and I chatted about the future. With the current situation the way it is I think the summer holidays have started for us, so we plan to concentrate even more on creativity and having lots of fun and for the next few days we'll have someone fun here to share that with.